I finally really figured out one major thing that has been holding me up in finishing this manuscript. But today, I wrote a good lead up to what I’m avoiding. Maybe tomorrow, I’ll be able to face the page that is why I started writing this book in 2004. I just can’t do it today, I’m shaking from the emotion of it.
I love my main character like he’s one of my own kids. The book is primarily about his getting bullied, but so far I have managed to avoid his actually getting hurt in a fight with the kid who has been threatening him since page one. Now, I have him ready to face the bully and the bully angry enough to do what has been coming for 90 odd pages. But I am not emotionally prepared to place the fist in the face of a character I love so much. However, because I need to resolve it, and quickly, before it keeps me awake nights with worry, I have determined, that I will in fact write it tomorrow. Today, I’m just too close.
I completely understand where you are coming from. Putting our characters, at least the ones we are emotionally attached to, is one of the most difficult things about writing.
When you write the scene, don’t hold back, even if it means taking breaks and keeping the tissues on hand. The more emotion you experience as the writer will mean the more emotion your reader will experience when he/she reads your book. When you feel it, we all feel it.
You can do it. Put it all on the page and go for it!
thanks, kristine! i actually wrote 1st half of scene n tues (as well as post) and 2nd half today. unfortunately what came out today seems to be leading to more pages that need tobe written when i’m so close to end. also, i really thought the scene would go much differently than it did – which is making me think the other pages are needed. more thinking over next few days.
Well, you already know about my Winchester-Mystery-House of a novel. Just when I thought I was done, I wrote myself into another scene. You will get to the end, but it is probably going to be a long, hard slog.
That said, it’s quite an accomplishment to get to this point in your novel and you deserve kudos for it, because this is the hardest part to write, and separates the wheat from the chaff, so to speak.
Can’t wait to celebrate with you when you’re done!
Bravo, Cathy! Wonderful news (painful as it can be). Very glad to hear this.
yeah cathy! you’re almost there! good luck getting through this emotional scene.
thanks, brittany, jen and kelly! i really appreciate everyone’s support through this process. and now that you mention it, brittany, i do remember you having an aha near the end and writing it in.
believe me, when i finish the plot line, i am popping a bottle of champagne before i strat sloggin through edit read-through!
ehem, that would be start slogging….not strat sloggin, who is a distant cousin of kenny loggins…