I finally really figured out one major thing that has been holding me up in finishing this manuscript. But today, I wrote a good lead up to what I’m avoiding. Maybe tomorrow, I’ll be able to face the page that is why I started writing this book in 2004. I just can’t do it today, I’m shaking from the emotion of it.
I love my main character like he’s one of my own kids. The book is primarily about his getting bullied, but so far I have managed to avoid his actually getting hurt in a fight with the kid who has been threatening him since page one. Now, I have him ready to face the bully and the bully angry enough to do what has been coming for 90 odd pages. But I am not emotionally prepared to place the fist in the face of a character I love so much. However, because I need to resolve it, and quickly, before it keeps me awake nights with worry, I have determined, that I will in fact write it tomorrow. Today, I’m just too close.