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Kristine: Hurry Up And Wait

When I quit my job to work at home as a freelance writer, I did so with much trepidation. It was a huge risk. While we had the security of my husband’s paycheck to sustain us, the loss of my full-time salary did made a dent in our financial situation. For three months, I didn’t bring any money in. I sent out resumes and approached potential clients with the hope that something would come in. Thankfully it did. My leap of faith turned out to be the best decision I ever made in my life, and I’m grateful for every day that I’m able to do the work that I do.

I attribute my success in launching my freelance career to two things: determination and patience. The determination part was easy. My desire to work at home was so intense that I was willing to sacrifice a lot in order to get there. The patience part didn’t come so easily, and it still doesn’t.

I read a book several years ago called ROMANCING THE ORDINARY by Sarah Ban Breathnach. In fact, I liked it so much that it still resides on my bookshelf. One of the chapters has special meaning to me because it has to do with the concept of waiting, a skill I don’t perform very well. Several sentences in the chapter were particularly insightful.

Waiting is not punishment, bad karma, or lousy luck, although at any wretched moment while you are waiting it feels that way. The truth is that waiting is when the magic happens. Waiting is the mystical space between the dreaming and its coming true. Uncertainty, not waiting, is the enemy.

It seems as if I’m always waiting for something or someone. Waiting for artwork or text to come in from columnists to meet my deadline. Waiting for the doctor to call me back about my daughter’s blood work results. Waiting for the scale to move back ten pounds. Waiting for the day when I can finally declare that I’ve finished my novel.

I guess it’s true that good things come to those who wait. I mean, we all waited nine months for our darling babies to be born and look how that turned out, right? ☺

3 Comments Post a comment
  1. Cathy #

    i can’t believe i’m reading this, kristine!!!!

    i JUST submitted a blog to miranda on the same theme!

    i am now convinced that this community of creative women on the web is a true community, we are operating on some level very in sync with each other. i’ve noticed we often have the same themes on our minds, whether crazed multitasking or that nagging voice in the back of our heads that calls us unworthy, or having patience with ourselves.

    love the quote btw.

    September 30, 2008
  2. Kristine #

    Hi Cathy,

    I agree! It’s amazing how much we all have in common. I knew from my first visits to this site that this was a community I needed to join.

    I can’t wait to read your post!

    September 30, 2008
  3. That quote pretty much sums up my life right now! Thanks for sharing, Kristine. Yes, the uncertainty is KILLING me, but I keep chugging forward during the waiting. Weird how that works…

    September 30, 2008

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