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Christa: Committed

I did it: committed to one project. I’ll be working on one of my novellas for the next six weeks.

How did this come about? Well, it’s a little convoluted. This year, with Rain Dog and I considering not only the possibility of moving, but also of him partnering with me in an expanded freelance business, I decided that I needed to clear my mind and heart. I wanted to be open to opportunity. I wanted to participate in Lent.

Yes, I’m Catholic. I’m not terribly religious, but I do believe in God, and I do believe he has a purpose for my life. No prayer I have ever prayed has gone unanswered – even if it was not the answer I would have liked at the time – and no matter where I thought my life was headed, it has always ended up better than I could have imagined.

But these past few months, I’ve been stuck in a rut. Stressed out because of money and my job and my kids and where I live, I’d been overeating and unsure of where to focus my energies. I made New Year’s resolutions, but broke them. I was quickly turning into a mess. And when we started to talk about moving, it added just another layer of stress.

Lent is early this year, but I’m grateful for that – I have an opportunity now to clean myself up. And the first few days have been fantastic. I’ve been doing daily devotionals (which I never do), avoiding my trigger foods in favor of good high-protein foods, and seeking better balance between work and kids.

And you know, somehow, it’s been working. I even feel totally calm about the moving process. I need to figure out a business plan for Rain Dog and me, and we need to get the house in order, but I’m confident that I’ll be able to do it. Step by step. I think this really will be the year we move, and I want to be sure I’m getting it right. Not perfect, but right.

As for that novella, I didn’t exactly pick it on my own. It picked me. I suddenly felt like it was the project I should be focusing on, and I’ve been working steadily on it. My hope is to finish it, or be close to finishing, sometime in the next six weeks – before or just after Easter. Then I guess we’ll see what comes of it.

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  1. Great news, Christa! You must be so relieved. Can’t wait to hear how things progress.

    I know what you mean about the moving thing–it should be daunting, but I feel strangely calm about the whole thing too, even though I might be packing up while going in to labor! And if things don’t work out, and we don’t sell the house–well, that will be OK too. In many ways, it doesn’t really matter.

    When you know what’s important, and then let go and trust the process, things really do work out. Whether it’s God or the universe, it works. I’m an uncomfortable agnostic (I wish I had your faith), but I have to admit that everything I’ve ever asked for, in seriousness, has happened. I do practice gratitude, so that if there IS a God and He’s listening, at least He’ll know that I’m appreciative!)

    Looking forward to seeing your novella plans on The Monday Page! šŸ™‚

    February 8, 2008
  2. Christa,

    Easter is my D-Day (Done Day) too. I wish I shared your sense of calm. Right now all I can think of are those little tick marks on the calendar. You’ll have to let me know your new techniques for balancing work and kid life. I’m at a total loss.

    February 8, 2008
  3. oh you go girl! I know you can do it. Really. And just let the other stuff slide off your back. Things really do have a way of working out. Always.

    [I’ll be waiting for updates]

    February 9, 2008
  4. caseycairo #

    Congratulations! I subscribe to this magazine called Body and Soul, and this was the theme of the magazine this month, you might consider picking it up, or I’d be happy to send it to you. Stop forcing things to try to happen, and just let them. The editor said that if you could rise up above your life and look down on the backstage, behind-the-scenes stuff that goes on, everything would make sense.

    I really think life is a constant ebb and flow of “I have my s*&t SO together” and “I am a mess.” Whatever that looks like to each of us. And I think it’s important, when you’re feeling like you’re NOT on top of things, to remember that you will feel that way again, probably soon. It’s great that you’re on top of things now, ride that wave!! Best of luck on the novella!

    February 10, 2008
  5. Guys, thanks so much for all the support!

    Miranda, if I knew I might be going into labor while moving, I think THAT would stress me out. LOL I’m glad you feel at peace about it!

    Brittany, I don’t have any new technique per se. The only thing I’m doing differently is clearing my head and body. I’ve cut out sweets – I was really seriously pigging out every day – and I’m taking about 15 minutes per day to read a daily devotional and some Bible verses. And to pray for guidance. Even if you prefer yoga, or “morning pages” (Julia Cameron swears by them) – I think the key is not to get caught up in the minutiae of life, but to focus on the bigger picture, think about what has to be done overall and then let intuition guide you. If that makes sense!

    Thanks Bethany! šŸ™‚

    Jenn, that’s really interesting. Does the magazine have an online presence? ITA about the ebb and flow. I’m trying harder on the “ebb” days to just go with it, stop forcing myself to do what doesn’t feel right. Usually those are the same days the kids are needy, so I try to settle down and focus on them. Hard because I’m really really bad at playing with them – but I try. It’s gotta count for something, right?

    February 10, 2008

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